Ok, am sure the title scared you but don’t be scared.
He is fine but am not.
So yesterday, we went for my friend’s baby shower since she is due at the end of this month. Just a point of note, it was awesome. It was a surprise and she was totally surprised. I cant wait to see her baby and am so proud of her.
Anyway, back to the story. Baby Lowell was placed on the bed as I was putting away some of the gifts that were brought. I went to get some more stuff and I had a bucket with a lid and some stuff inside. So, I took off the lid and without even thinking knocked my baby on the side of his face with the lid. Apparently, it was just a light touch on his face but I felt terrible. He started crying and I dropped everything and picked him up and started soothing him. I was so sad that I started crying.
The most embarrassing thing was that the room was full of other people and they all saw my tears. Within a few seconds, baby was fine and he even started smiling but I felt really bad. Almost like a bad mom. I’ve had incidences where he was hurt like when he is receiving his injections for immunizations and he cries out so very loud and it is so much more painful for him. However, I never cry, I just pick him up and comfort and soothe him. It is not the same when am the one who caused the pain, it was the saddest thing ever.
Funny thing, I thought I was over it and decided to tell his daddy the story this morning thinking we would laugh about it. Sorry to say, I immediately started crying all over again.
Anyway, mums at the shower told me that it was totally normal and I would get used to it since accidentally hurting baby is a totally common thing since we are all human. Some have knocked their babies over, some have dropped theirs, some have burnt babies while I hit Lowell with a bucket lid (sorry).
Honestly, seeing your baby cry and knowing they are hurting is a painful thing to endure but we are mothers and are equipped to cope and find a way to heal.
There is a saying in Swahili that says, “Uchungu wa mwana aujuaye ni mzazi” (The pain of a child is only known to a parent). I totally felt that pain yesterday.
Be good to your littles and love them some more today.