Month: December 2013

Kenya @ 50/Happy Birthday

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Its the most beautiful country on earth.

For real, its totally gorgeous and I get to be a citizen here.

Am so proud to be Kenyan. We’ve been through so much over the past fifty years. But we are most proud of our freedom.

And we are moving forward.

One thing that I love Kenya is how much love we have for our country.

There is a special Kenyan spirit that can be felt whenever you come to this country. Even when you travel to other countries and meet Kenyans there, you can feel the spirit.

Its in all of us.

We have amazing leaders and as we celebrate these 50 years of independence, I wish all Kenyans a Happy Birthday. I definitely feel like its my birthday.

I’ll be spending this holiday at home with my family! Where will you be??

We Are One.

Love you Kenya.

Little Hands

I am a happy woman..

I am a happy mother…

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When these little hands touch me, my heart bursts

Little soft hands

So comforting….

I do love my baby so much, maybe a little too much but there is nothing like ‘too much’ when its your baby.
Its amazing how much love one can hold in their hearts. Yet, we sometimes choose to hold on to hatred. <how unfortunate>.

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I really wish everyone could get to experience this kind of love and see how just a touch from two teensy tiny hands can make a woman so happy.

I hope your Friday is going well. What is making you happy today!Do share….

4 Things for December

Its a brand new month and the last month of 2014.

December brings so much activity that we tend to never take time to relax and just be. For me, its much busier because am a new mom and I have so much to tackle each day. To be honest, I do not even know how days end. To be brutally honest, I’ve not seen the inside of a salon in two months <that’s totally crazy>.

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Its a crazy life right now but am loving it. However, I need to be more intentional with how I live my life this month. Am therefore setting some little goals that I wish to accomplish this month. They are not really goals but more of intentions of how I want to live my December.

1. Relax..Oh dear, I really need to do this some more. Between breastfeeding, changing diapers, writing for some extra income and so much more in between…I never get time to absolutely relax. Even when am watching a movie, am always doing something else. Thinking about it, its difficult to pin point a day where I’ve felt absolutely relaxed in the past month. Am always thinking about the next thing. Even when am asleep, am thinking about the next moment when baby wakes up to feed. Its crazy. I intend to relax just a little bit more this month. To just let it go and stop doing things non-stop. A dirty house never killed anyone.

2. Take some more time for ME….I need to take better care of myself. Beginning with going to the salon, I’ll do it as soon as I can. I also need to cook some of the things I love or even bake a cake just for myself. Anyone offering a full body massage is welcome…I need it bad. I intend to give more to myself. Its weird how as women we forget ourselves when we have a baby.

3. Family…I want spend more time with my family this month. Some time with just me, my hubby and baby would be awesome. I also want to spend time with my parents and my siblings. I would also love some time with my in-law family. I love that I have people I love unconditionally and I know they love me too. The laughter and joy of spending time with family is absolutely what I need.

4. Romance…Yeah, I totally intend to have some romance in my life this month.

What are your wishes for December?What do you want to accomplish? Share please!!!

I accidentally hurt my baby and I cried

Ok, am sure the title scared you but don’t be scared.

He is fine but am not.

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So yesterday, we went for my friend’s baby shower since she is due at the end of this month. Just a point of note, it was awesome. It was a surprise and she was totally surprised. I cant wait to see her baby and am so proud of her.

Anyway, back to the story. Baby Lowell was placed on the bed as I was putting away some of the gifts that were brought. I went to get some more stuff and I had a bucket with a lid and some stuff inside. So, I took off the lid and without even thinking knocked my baby on the side of his face with the lid. Apparently, it was just a light touch on his face but I felt terrible. He started crying and I dropped everything and picked him up and started soothing him. I was so sad that I started crying.

The most embarrassing thing was that the room was full of other people and they all saw my tears. Within a few seconds, baby was fine and he even started smiling but I felt really bad. Almost like a bad mom. I’ve had incidences where he was hurt like when he is receiving his injections for immunizations and he cries out so very loud and it is so much more painful for him. However, I never cry, I just pick him up and comfort and soothe him. It is not the same when am the one who caused the pain, it was the saddest thing ever.

Funny thing, I thought I was over it and decided to tell his daddy the story this morning thinking we would laugh about it. Sorry to say, I immediately started crying all over again.

Anyway, mums at the shower told me that it was totally normal and I would get used to it since accidentally hurting baby is a totally common thing since we are all human. Some have knocked their babies over, some have dropped theirs, some have burnt babies while I hit Lowell with a bucket lid (sorry).

Honestly, seeing your baby cry and knowing they are hurting is a painful thing to endure but we are mothers and are equipped to cope and find a way to heal.

There is a saying in Swahili that says, “Uchungu wa mwana aujuaye ni mzazi” (The pain of a child is only known to a parent). I totally felt that pain yesterday.

Be good to your littles and love them some more today.